Posts tagged ‘puisi’

Stay Strong For You

UNTUKMU AKU BERTAHAN

Tenanglah kekasihku – Be calm my love

Ku tahu hatimu menangis – I know your heart cries

Beranilah dan percaya – Be brave and believe

Semua ini pasti berlalu – All these would fade away

Meski takkan mudah – Though it wouldn’t be easy

Namun kau takkan sendiri – But you’ll not be alone

Ku ada di sini – I am right here

 

Untukmu aku akan bertahan – For you I will stay strong

Dalam gelap takkan ku tinggalkan – In darkness, I won’t leave

Engkaulah teman sejati kasihku – You’re my true soulmate, my love

Di setiap hariku – In every day of mine

 

Untuk hatimu ku kan bertahan – For your heart I will stay strong

Sebentuk hati yang ku nantikan – A piece of heart I always long for

Hanya kau dan aku yang tahu – Only you and me would understand

Arti cinta yang telah kita punya – The true meaning of our love

-AFGAN©-

 

Translated by me.

 

26 weeks (182 days) ago. You came to my life. You didn’t just come and leave like other people. You stayed through many thick and thin. You survived through all heat and cold. You changed me. You transform my life. I was once a man who could care less about everything happening outside my world and inside me. I live my life from the time I open my eyes to close them again.

Then I saw you came. You shake my life. You teach me about love, about care, about kindness, about you. You tell me about having a heart. You build me to be a man. You stood strong when I crumbled down. You pulled me up when I slopped down. You draw a smile on my face. You brighten my days and lighten my nights. You shine inside me, in my heart. You give me warmth and love.

You made me love you for everything. You made me your warrior. You made me your other half. You made me significant.

I may not be able to pay for all you have brought for me. All I can do is fighting to be your happiness for now and ever. I have promised you that I will not leave you, that I will stay for you and be your happiness.

I sang the above song for you on 10th December 2014 on our way to London. I meant it every each word of it.

Half a year today. Many decades to come.

For your happiness, I survive. For my happiness, I love you.

For Wei.

With Love,

eldios©

Day 9 – How Could I Tell You?

Rain drops in a summer night

The sky is as gloomy as my heart

Standing on the bay

Staring far away

 

Sea waves roll high tides

Ocean lose their calms

Tonight it is one bumpy ride

In one of the dark realms

 

Oh love.

How much more should I say it out?

Don’t you hear my heart screaming loud?

 

Once upon a time not so long ago

On an old bench in this summer night

Through my eyes I have let you understood

You believe so I love you

 

But things have probably now altered

The dark days and miserable nights

Left you out questioned if I were honest

If I were just a little old unloved boy

 

Oh love.

How could I tell you the truth?

If you would never unlock your heart?

 

Oh love.

How would you feel what I feel?

If you would never glance on me?

 

Oh love.

You may never believe what I have said.

I love you.

 

Not because of longing for care

Not because of missing a girl

Not because you look after

 

I could give you thousands of reasons.

But love is sometimes so simple.

You brought me back to dreams.

You breath me into life.

You shine my heart.

You are my everything.

 

It is unfortunate that you don’t love me so.

It is worse when I can’t have the chance to prove my love.

It is worst when you disbelieve my true love.

 

Standing on the shore.

Tears stream on my shoulders.

How could I tell you?

I love you, Wei.

For everything you are.

From the deepest heart of mine.

In all honesty.

This is love that I feel upon you

 

Msida, 24th September 2014

-edwongso©-

 

For WT.

 

With Love,

eldios©

Day 8 – Letting Go

A week has now passed

A lot has occurred for us

From the sweetest to the ugliest

But together we could always surpass

 

We are stronger in bond

We stay united despite the last bomb

Together we could always survive

But both of us know, I’m fighting myself

 

Infatuation.

The history just repeats.

When one loves the other loves another.

 

Should I stay any longer?

Could I see you with the other?

 

Your happiness is my breath to life

Your sadness is my gateway to hell

Would I get the chance to be the man?

To love you and being loved?

 

Should I stay for more?

Or leaving you with the other?

 

All I could do tonight

Before I close my eyes and sleep tight

 

Perhaps one little prayer I would whisper

If you believe nobody else could make you happier

Not even this one man loner lover

Then be with him

Tears might drop and stream

I would still smile in the dim

I wish you the biggest happiest life

I love you more than anything

 

Msida, 23rd September 2014

-edwongso©-

 

For WT.

 

With Love,

eldios©

 

 

Day 2 – Pain

I am speechless.

I can’t even find a word to describe how painful this is

I don’t understand what has gone wrong between us

Is it wrong just to love you?

Is it wrong that I fall in love with you?

Is it my mistake that I just want to know a bit more than others?

I don’t understand what mistakes I have done

I have hurt you again and again

I tried so hard to understand

I tried so hard to see from your eyes

But I just could not

I could not see what you see

I kept on hurting you

You kept on believing that I am the bad one

I am lost

I am speechless

Tears drop and dry

Heart bleeds and cry

There are so much misunderstandings between us

But we can’t talk

We don’t have the time

Or we just don’t try harder

I am lost

I am speechless

I love you

All I do is because I love you

If this is a mistake

If this is what hurt you

I would rather not to hurt you

-edwongso©-

 

For WT.

I’m truly sorry I hurt you too much.

 

With Love,

eldios©

Day 1 – When You Are Gone

Morning rises slowly
Cloud turns grey
Emptiness in my heart
And sadness is quickyly filling up
Oh where are you love?
Wind blows wiping my tears
Can I shout my heart out?
I miss you…
I miss you probably too much
But without you life seems black and white
You are the reason I smile every day
You are the reason my heart pumps harder
I have said I love you more than thousands times
But they are still not enough
Oh where are you, love?
I can’t hold my tears any longer
I miss you..
Miss you here beside my heart

Msida, 16 September 2014
-edwongso-

For 为为。

我好想为为。

With Love,
eldios

Hai, Ma!

Ma !

Bukan maut yang menggetarkan hatiku,

Tetapi hidup yang tidak hidup karena kehilangan daya dan kehilangan fitrahnya

Ada malam-malam aku menjalani lorong panjang tanpa tujuan kemana-mana

Hawa dingin masuk ke badanku yang hampa, padahal angin tidak ada

Bintang-bintang menjadi kunang-kunang yang lebih menekankan kehadiran kegelapan

Tidak ada pikiran,

Tidak ada perasaan,

Tidak ada suatu apa.

 

Hidup memang fana, Ma.

Tetapi keadaan tak berdaya, membuat diriku tidak ada

Kadang-kadang, aku merasa terbang ke belantara

Dijauhi ayah bunda

Dan ditolak para tetangga atau aku terlantar di pasar

Aku berbicara tetapi orang-orang tidak mendengar

Mereka merobek-robek buku dan mentertawakan cita-cita

Aku marah,

Aku takut,

Aku gemetar,

Namun gagal menyusun bahasa.

 

Hidup memang fana, Ma.

Itu gampang aku terima,

Tetapi duduk menekuk lutut sendirian di sabanah

Membuat hidupku tak ada harganya.

Kadang-kadang, aku merasa ditarik-tarik orang kesana kemari

Mulut berbusa sekedar karena tertawa

Hidup cemar karena basa-basi

Dan orang-orang mengisi waktu dengan pertengkaran edan yang tanpa persoalan

Atau percintaan tanpa asmara

Dan senggama yang tidak selesai.

 

Hidup memang fana, tentu saja, Ma.

Tetapi akrobat pemikiran dan kepalsuan yang dikelola mengacaukan isi perutku

Lalu mendorong aku menjerit-jerit sambil tak tahu kenapa.

Rasanya setelah mati berulang kali,

Tak ada lagi yang mengagetkan di dalam hidup ini.

 

Tetapi, Ma, setiap kali menyadari,

Adanya kamu di dalam hidupku ini

Aku merasa jalannya arus darah di sekujur tubuhku

Kelenjar-kelenjarku bekerja

Sukmaku menyanyi

Dunia hadir

Cicak di tembok berbunyi

Tukang kebun kedengaran berbicara kepada putranya

Hidup menjadi nyata

Fitrahku kembali.

 

Mengingat kamu, Ma, adalah mengingat kewajiban sehari-hari.

Kesederhanaan bahasa prosa, keindahan puisi-puisi.

Kita selalu asyik bertukar pikiran, ya, Ma?

Masing-masing pihak punya cita-cita.

Masing-masing pihak punya kewajiban yang nyata

 

Hai, Ma!

Apakah kamu ingat?

Aku peluk kamu diatas perahu ketika perutmu sakit?

Dan aku tenangkan kamu dengan ciuman-ciuman di lehermu.

 

Masya Allah!

Aku selalu kesengsem pada bau kulitmu.

Ingatkah?

Waktu itu aku berkata

Kiamat boleh tiba,

Hidupku penuh makna!

 

Wah, aku memang tidak rugi ketemu kamu di hidup ini

Dan apabila aku menulis sajak,

Aku juga merasa bahwa kemarin dan esok adalah hari ini.

 

Bencana dan keberuntungan sama saja

Langit di luar, langit di badan, bersatu dalam jiwa

Sudah ya, Ma!

 

Jakarta, Juli 1992

– RENDRA©

 

With Love,

eldios©

Diam

Kala hati hendak mengungkap satu rasa

Kala lidah menghentak hendak bicara

Mata terpejam sejenak mencari siapa

Makhluk bersahaja pendengar setia

Bagai ditelan angin hilang tak bernafas

Enyah tanpa arah tujuan jelas

Tanpa jejak tanpa bekas

Kembali diriku sendiri menyambut nahas

 

Oh.. bila hati ini bersuara

Dan tiada siapa duduk diam demi diriku bicara

Selayaknya diriku pergi ke selatan lalu utara

Sampai saatnya nanti diriku akan berjumpa

Satu batu tanpa nama temanku paling setia

Ketika hanya letih yang tersisa

Sedang bulir-bulir keringat kutelan demi dahaga

Berdua diriku dan si batu bersahaja

Bersenda bergurau menunggu mentari terjaga

 

Ketika mereka yang tidur, bangkit dari lelap malam

Sekelabat detik berlalu sebelum mata terpejam

Dan diriku kembali diam

Menyimpan segala hasrat dalam kelam

Melantunkan musik sendu menanti datang malam

Saat diriku sendirian diam bersama hati terpendam.

 

Dublin, 07 December 2011

– Edvyn Andy Wongso© –

 

Diam dalam kelam.

With Love,

eldios©

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