Posts from the ‘hugs and kisses’ Category

ALS Ice Bucket Challenge

 

I was nominated by my colleagues Jacob Vella and Sean Mizzi.

I am forwarding this to Irvyn Wongso, Widyamurti Paramita, Winna Edwina and Claire Vella.

 

With Love,

eldios©

You Are My Friend

Woke up cold today

It’s happened again

In the blink of an eye

I’ve lost a friend

All that I did wrong

Playing in my head

Only things I hear

The words I never said

How could you not know that I cared?

In the darkest of your days I met you there

When the clouds are rolling in

And the rain is pouring down

Inside I am screaming

But they never hear a sound

I know I’ve made mistakes

And I want to show you love

I can hear them whisper

Saying “she’s not good enough”

You are my friend

You are my friend

I’ve had enough of being something that I’m not

Realising that it’s over is the armour to your shots

I might forget your birthday

Won’t call you all the time

But the second you need me

I’ll race to stand by your side

I know that’s not good enough for you

Well my friendship’s based on love and not on rules

When the clouds are rolling in

And the rain is pouring down

Inside I am screaming

But they never hear a sound

I know I’ve made mistakes

And I want to show you love

I can hear them whisper

Saying “she’s not good enough”

You are my friend

You are my friend

There’s nothing I could do to make it end

There’s no hole I could tear you wouldn’t mend

You are..

You are my friend

You are my friend

You are my friend

You are my friend

You are my friend

When the clouds are rolling in

And the rain is pouring down

Inside I am screaming

But they always hear a sound

I know I’ve made mistakes

They still show you love

The only thing they whisper is

“I am good enough”

You are my friend

You are my friend

There’s nothing that I could do to make it end

There’s no hole that I could tear you couldn’t mend

You are..

You are my friend

-Roxanne Emery. 2013.©

 

I miss all my friends.. miss them so much. while I’m stranded here.. there is nothing could help better than few laughter with friends.

I miss all my friends. ALL. no exception.

 

Wish you all well.

 

With Love,

eldios©

Villain

Have you ever loved someone with all whole your heart?
Someone who will make you smile just by imagination
Someone who you want to be by your side
Someone who keep your heart warm and comfort
Even when you almost never see them

Have you ever witnessed one true love?
About love that is unbreakable
About someone who would do everything
Just to be with their lovers
About someone who would sacrifice
Just because of one reason, love

Love might not make any senses
Make people to think absurd
To be more brave than before
To do the unthinkable
Or something we think plain and stupid
For them it is a fight, a game, a battle

They would do every single thing
They would not count the risk
They would kill
They would die
Like they have nothing to lose
They just don’t want to lose their lovers
They don’t want their love to die
They keep it tight in them
Hold it strong like a soul
Sleep with it
Eat with it
Live with love

But often these stories are laughable
Absurd and mad, people might think off
That we’d rather get rid of them
Sack them out of our world
Cursing those lovers as a villain
As if loving is a crime
While for some, love is just their life
Love is something they can’t lose
That they would rather lose their life

Do you still witness this love?
Or we have used to laugh on those love believers?
That in our lives love no longer flaming
And we with our ego has become so cold
Like a villain.

Jakarta, 9 March 2013
Ed Wongso©

From a villain,
eldios©

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Sound Of Silence

Hello darkness, my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seed while I was sleeping
And the vision..
That was planted in my brain
Still remains..
Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
Split the night
And touched the sound of silence

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousands people maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence

“Fools,” said I, “You do not know.”
“Silence’s like a cancer grows.”
“Hear my words that I might teach you.”
“Take my arms that I might reach you.”
“But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed…
In the wells of silence.”

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the sign said the words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls
And whispered in the sound of silence

Simon & Garfunkel©

A legendary song that brings me back many memories. The only song that I could play on piano. The song that pictures the world today. How we care less with people around us as the time takes us into our ego. And that we often forget those around us, who need us, until we lose them for sometimes maybe forever. No, I am not talking about people living on riverside or roadside, but those under the same roof as us, probably with the same surname, or one who grows up together, and look how often we forget them because we are too busy with our ego to take few seconds to realize that they hide in their wells of silence. No one knows they are alone when they are not.

Depression never speaks or even whispers by itself.

With Love,
eldios©

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2012 In Memory

2012. What a year. It is now 2 weeks since the new year. I hope it is not too late to see how I did in 2012. Well, I didn’t write any resolution last year. I only had few things that I wanted to achieve. Let’s see if I have got them all done.

https://eldios.wordpress.com/2012/01/01/resolution-2012/

Here is checklist from last year:
1. Finish medical school and become a doctor. – I did.
2. Express and explain myself for people to understand. – It started promising until the day when everything crumbled down again.
3. Get a new pair of shoes and a new gadget. – I didn’t just buy a pair of shoes, in fact I got 4! and I got an ipod.
4. Celebrate Christmas and New Year with a new life companion. – It went miserably with a total failure ending. The saddest story of 2012.
5. Be more peaceful and more happy. – A complete fail.

It seems like I have got half of things I wanted to achieve, overall it didn’t seem too bad, but in fact it wasn’t a bright one either. 2012 was more gloomy and dark. It was a promising year but ended without any happy ending. So, what would I do or hope for 2013? I will tell on my next stop here.

I hope it’s not too late to wish a Happy New Year to everyone.

With Love,
eldios

So This Is Goodbye

So this is goodbye
The end of one life journey
I was born to live like a clown
Hop from town to town
To bring happiness and fun
But everything will come to an end
Six years one month one week and three days
Life has been good full of ups and downs
It’s time for us to part ways
Thank you, thanks Ireland and everyone for the love, friendship and happiness
To you my love will always be endless
To me it will be life in a new way
So this is goodbye..

Dublin Airport, November 4th 2012
– Ed Wongso©-

With Love,
eldios©

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Hold Your Hope(s)

Today I rode rollercoasters for the third time in the last 2 months. It was fun but I had something to learn from today.

I still remember when I rode rollercoaster for the first time 11 years ago in Dunia Fantasi, Jakarta. I was so nervous. It was only because the excitement to sit right next to W, I felt (or made myself felt) confident. I laughed all the way throughout the ride.

Many years after I rode more rollercoaster in Disneyland and Universal Studios when I visited USA. They were more challenging and more fun. I was more nervous but I was ready for the challenge. I sat in front row and enjoyed most of it. Although every rides had its own effect, I was up for the challenge and took the risk.

This year I went for 3 rollercoaster rides in 3 different theme park in the UK. I was not nervous at all when I rode the first time this year in Blackpool Pleasure Beach. I made all like just a joke. Even my friends were scared of what I did. But, I didn’t care about the rollercoaster anymore, I just wanted the thrill effect. Then I went with my sister just a week after the first ride.

The second ride was in Thorpe Park. It was more thrilling and challenging. I have to admit that I was more nervous. I had a bit of palpitations but when everything was done, I just thought they are all the same, it’s just the process of the thrill that is different in each of them.

Today I went again with my sister and her friends to Alton Towers. I was up for it and few of them even bored me throughout the ride. They didn’t challenge me to nervebreaking effect. But, that is when I realised of something.

Imagine as if the rollercoaster is your life and the thrill effect is your daily problems. Imagine if you ride the same rollercoaster everyday, you would know what lies ahead and you may master it after few rides, but you would be bored after some times. Imagine if you have to ride different rollercoaster every now and then. They prepare different levels of challenge, sometimes it’s more nervecracking, sometimes it’s easily done. You will face many kinds of problems. You will master the easy ones, but you will be up for the challenges whatever they are.

The more rollercoasters you ride, the less fear you will have in your mind. You would just stand up and fight for everything that blocks your way to the finish line. But, one very important thing you need to understand is never be bored with the rollercoaster rides. Don’t lose your interest to ride for more even if they are the same one. Keep on riding them. Master them all. Because, when you lose interest in it, it means you lose your hope in your life and that is what you should fear most.

That was what I learnt today. I am not scared at all for any kind of rollercoaster rides. I will just walk in, sit down and go through it. I have no more fear. I don’t fear anything anymore. I don’t fear death. I don’t fear God (because God isn’t there for me to fear but He is there to lead, accompany, guide, help and live me). The only (seriously) thing I fear the most is I am bored with the rollercoaster rides and eventually losing interest in riding it which means I lose my hopes in life. So, I need to hold on to my hopes and so do you. We all have to keep our hopes high. Because people who committed suicides are those who lost hopes in their life.

“It is when you lose your hopes, you are actually dead, even if you are still alive” -eldios©

Hold tight on your hopes and keep on riding. It is so much easy to say it now even for me, but it would be better if I could apply it in my life.

Happy living.

With Love,
eldios©

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