Final of Final

This is supposedly be my final yearbook in life. I have asked some closest people who may not know everything about me but they have been around me for years and decades, they have seen enough of me throughout times to be able say few words about who I really am.   “As his elder [...]

Resolution 2012

I am not going to write New Year’s Resolution this year. Every year I write New Year’s Resolution always ends up in an epic fail ending. Once it failed, I would tend to write the same thing again year after year. So, this year I’m just gonna write things I would aim to achieve by [...]

2011: The Dark Age

This year began with huge hopes in myself, just a typical morale boost that I always have every New Year’s Eve with a bunch list of resolution which have never been achieved and some even were forgotten along the year. Having said that, it was a hard year to begin. I was alone in my [...]

Anger

“What’s wrong with you!? Why did you have to do it in the first place!?” a friend shouted it to me.   It hurt me for a second. Lucky enough, I could catch myself was about to get angry but then I realised that my friend might have misunderstood what I tried to explain and, [...]

The Best Friend

Few weeks ago I felt so down because everything did not occur in the right way, nothing was on my side, and I fell into depressive days. Until one night I could not sleep at all, I was sitting on my chair with an empty feeling. I turned my head and searched my book shelf [...]

Lonesome

Kangen Kau takkan mengerti segala lukaku. Menghadapi kemerdekaan tanpa cinta. Karena cinta telah sembunyikan pisaunya. Membayangkan wajahmu adalah siksa. Kesepian adalah ketakutan dan kelumpuhan. Engkau telah menjadi racun bagi darahku. Apabila aku dalam tekanan dan sepi. Itulah berarti aku tungku tanpa api. – Rendra –   LONESOME You would never understand all my wounds Facing [...]

A Final Med Resolution

When everyone in my class is busy studying and preparing for their final med exams, I’m still busy figuring out what kind of doctor I wanna be. I’m not thinking about who I want to be or which specialty I’m going to train. I just think about what kind of doctor I wanna be. In [...]

Another Sweet Dream

I had a lot of swings since yesterday. I tried not to bother you everyday because I thought you would be bored by me. It has hit me hard, really hard. I lost my appetite, then followed with some other things made me confused, worried, and under pressure. Suddenly, all things gave me problems. I [...]

Make You Feel My Love

When the rain is blowing in your face And the whole world is on your case I could offer you a warm embrace To make you feel my love When the evening shadows and the stars appear And there is no one there to dry your tears I could hold you for a million years [...]

I have a question

I have a question… One that I could never answer.. What A good thing I have ever done.. In these twenty and five years.. As a boy? As a man? As a friend? And as a son? Who have ever smiled because of me? Whom I have given just a tiny happiness? Perhaps none.. Probably [...]

Sail The Kite, Live The Dream!

I felt empty. I didn’t know what I want. I didn’t know who I want to be. It is scary to see what I have turned into. This rollercoaster miserable mind has seriously shaken my life for the last 1 month or so. It hit th climax on the day when I supposedly finished my [...]

A Quarter of Century

Dublin, May 1st 2011. IT’S SUNDAY! IT’S MAY DAY! IT’S MY BIRTHDAY! A Quarter of Century! Should I feel bad or glad? It’s my 25th birthday. It’s the first silver mark in my life. It is the most grateful birthday I have ever had. For the first time ever in my life I did not [...]

Curhat Basi

Attenzione! Ini cerita basi, resiko tanggung sendiri.   Beberapa hari belakangan teman-teman gw kasih opini mereka secara langsung maupun tidak. Teman yang pertama bilang: Aku rasa kamu harus mulai cari pilihan lain, jangan mentok di satu ini saja. Teman yang kedua komentar: Kalau soal yang ini, udah give up deh gw. Yang satu lagi lebih [...]

A Day of Love

Live long enough to experience In the sweetest moment of a glance Deep inside of a beautiful face We will witness one lady of grace Infatuation will strike right in the heart Never stop for even one second Amazingly hypnotize my mind Willingly to do everything for one move In the end it is just [...]

Double You.

Let the dove fly high beyond the sky I will never know if you asked me why Don’t ever demand me for more reasons Whatever reasons have long time gone I can only wait and wait for you, I wait Never will a tiresome heart be a winner As long as I could stay close [...]

New Year’s Target

It is not a plan. It is not a hope. It is more than a resolution. It is beyond a dream. It is a target. I wrote a New Year’s Resolution for each new year in 2009 (click here: 2009 Resolution) and 2010 (click here: 2010 Resolution). In 2009, I did not wish many things because an [...]

2011: in the making.

It is another January 1st. It is another new year. Yes, it is just another day, but it is a day with a new hope, new expectations and new spirits. It is the time to build the stronger foundation for a new chapter in our life. 2010 is now a history and I’m very much [...]

The Battle of 2010

2010 has been a spectacular year for me. There are mixed of lots of struggles and happiness. Emotion fluctuated ups and downs through the year. Each month has its own story. Two thousands and ten brought me two thousands and ten emotions. The madness was sometimes uncontrollable. The euphoria was sometimes irresistible. 2010 was a [...]

my heart screams (again!)

I have 1000 reasons why I love you!   But, I actually only need 1 reason to love you.   And the reason is YOU! It is doubleyou!   In Love. eldios© Posted by eldios with WordPress for BlackBerry.

My Christmas 10 Years Ago

Today is my 24th Christmas of my life. Each of them has been celebrated in a different way with a different theme. Last year, I was in Sunderland, United Kingdom, celebrated it together with some friends. We had a good Christmas Eve party ended with some silly but fun game. Two years ago, I was [...]